BEVERLY:  I remember when I had my first encounter with death, you know.  I was a little bit afraid.  And, you know, it's -- it's scary.  And -- but, you know, apparently an elderly gentleman had collapsed and -- and I did try.  You know, he must have collapsed some -- it had been some time before somebody found him.  I did do CPR and -- and, you know, it was not -- he was already gone, you know. 

But I -- you know, we do try.  And so that was quite, you know...
 
Well, we -- and then I -- the other encounter I had was a SIDs death.  A small, beautiful baby girl that had apparently had Sudden Infant Death during the night.  And those are, you know, hard, especially babies, you know. 

The elderly gentleman that had lived a full life, a good life, and, you know, he had done his job.  He raised all his children.  But this baby was like -- many times I wondered, you know, why, or, you know, what could -- what could I have done, you know, many times there was these thoughts.  And this baby. 

And then, you know, the police had to come in and the public safety from Barrow came in a small plane and -- and then, you know, I was to release the body to the policeman, and this policeman came in.  And he was carrying a big diaper box.  And I said, excuse me?  What are you doing with a diaper box? 

And then he says, oh, I'm going to put the baby in.  Oh.  That don't -- that didn't go well with me.  You know. 

I said, sir, I will not release the body if you're going to put it in that box.  You have to respect this infant's family.  Would you like to put your dead baby in a diaper box? 

Oh, you know.  He was just kind of -- I said, if you have a body bag, we'll fold it in half and, you know, I'll release the body, but if you're going to put it in a diaper box, I am not releasing the body. 

I was -- many times I've had to stand my ground to what I believe is cross-cultural care or, you know, just being respectful of another life that may have passed on, you know.  And then the officer, you know, he did get a body bag and we fold it in half and we put the baby in there, and then I was able to. 

But you know, there are times when some doctors that often are temporary duty, they don't always know where we're coming from, and many times I've had to just be adamant and maybe downright aggressive, you know, or even stand my ground because, you know, you know these people that you live with in the community, you know how they do things and you know how they live, you know, and you -- you get a -- you can get an idea, you know.